Gate 58

I'm waiting for rothy at the boarding gate for our impending flight. I'm looking at my calendar and feeling astounded by how bad the next two weeks are going to be. I have four final projects and two performances to pull out of thin air.

being sad for everybody

i feel really sad about paul walker's death and i can't decide whether i should or not. i'll think about this more on the plane. back to the east i go

you may call me baby rose, or multiflora rose because these are the English names for 蔷薇, from which the first character of my Chinese name comes.

thanksgiving photos

my thanksgiving domestic chen pie extravaganza. i spent all of wednesday making these while watching a marathon of the saga of The Little Couple's adoption of their Chinese baby Will. they turned out even better than expected and a request for a repeat apple pie for christmas has been filed by mama chen.

some nice thanksgiving pictures taken by my cousin

walking dread

i've had a wonderful thanksgiving this year surrounded by handmade food and beloved family in my favorite city. i'm feeling grateful for that but also endlessly conflicted and troubled by neverending unknowns and variables about school (short-term: finals, long-term: thesis), employment/career/fate, human relationships, geographic situation, etc. and it all feels like a very heavy weight on the heartmind. i'm very much dreading going back to new york, place of dread.    

old man river

what a beautiful lady

residential pov

do you ever see pictures of people's trips to new york and marvel about how your life in new york looks nothing like that? last night i paid almost $40 for a cab to take me home from times square because no arrangement of trains would be able to get me home before 4:30am. so fucking glamorous.

soyum

tonight's one am snack is a glass of mashed potatoes in bed

charbaby

caritas et amor

how is it possible to feel too sad to sleep? shouldn't it have the opposite effect? i'm just up looking at pictures of sloths but it's making me kind of too emotional.

lilo

anybody else want to watch liz and dick?

jorge bday

birthday party in the east village a few weeks ago

knockdown maspeth

Had a meeting in a Whole Foods today. There was no shortage of snacks.

your daily internet

my bucket's got a hole in it

i'm home alone for the first time in the longest time i can remember. yessssss thursday night in with me me mememe meem em em emem me m eem em em emm em e mem 

hello kitty band-aid premium

i cut my finger open deep on the jagged edge of the saran wrap box. i feel like a wet rag, terrible, heavy and moldy.