Frontier

Everyone on this plane smiled at me as I walked down the aisle and it was really sweet but really weird. Also it took only about ten minutes in the airport for me to lose my neck pillow :(

no glamping in the everglades

vana, sinay, and our friends from work jb and ah just got back from the everglades. on friday after work we drove down to miami, where we went to some really cool artsy bars in wynwood. the five of us crammed into one bedroom in an air bnb where the host's parents were staying in the other room. we weren't really sure what this was going to be like but our new ecuadorian parents roberto and ximena were the nicest people ever and made us all scrambled eggs and brownies for breakfast. there was a sweet tiny sheep-like dog named lily and she was the sweetest cutest cleanest half-bichon half-cocker-spaniel creature and all she wanted to do was sit in roberto's lap all day even though she was a little too big.

from miami we drove down to the everglades, where we rented canoes to row 4 miles to our campsite. we loaded vana and jb into one canoe with all the gear and ah and i rowed the other canoe with sinay in the middle. as we rowed you could see fish jumping out of the water, sometimes several feet high, and you could only imagine the swamp creatures that must've been chasing them. after 3 hours of rowing we found a horrendous little beach to pitch camp. somehow ah made a stove out of an aluminum can, a penny, and some everclear. as soon as the sun started to suggest to set, clouds of millions of 'no-see-'em's' - tiny biting flies - appeared and descended upon us, driving the 5 of us into a two-person tent to sweat profusely together and cower in fear. once it was night the fireflies came out and were a wondrous sight to behold, blinking magically near and far while the sky was wild with stars. vana and i shared a tent and the ground was so hard and uneven and the ocean was so loud and there were so many mosquitoes inside our tent and the night had gone from blisteringly hot to extremely cold that i hardly slept a wink and once even sat up and wondered when this night would be over. in the morning i woke absolutely smothered in mosquito bites. they're so profusely and densely dispersed on my arms and my back and full side torso that i look like a smallpox victim. we extremely wanted to get the hell out of this campsite which had been so little payoff for all the hard work it had taken to get there, and we knew the return would be worse because this time both the wind and the tide would be against us. the tide was at its lowest and the winds gusted at 11-15 mph so that it literally took 4.5 hours for us to row back to the visitor center.   

bye vana

whenever my roommate is out of town (she's in miami) i am a complete fucking heathen. music on blast, no clothes, booze, dishes everywhere

Hb trisha

It's 3:50 pm and I think I can get out of bed now. My day unfortunately consists of a birthday dinner in 2 hours and then a bar crawl. I think I won't drink.

There is a god

Psychic moment of the day: I woke up thinking about the my chemical romance song black parade from 2006 and how I should listen to it and now I'm sitting in a coffee shop and it came on overhead

i hate your boyfriend

i am hiding in the space on the floor between my bed and the wall so i can avoid my roommate's tinder bf without having to close the door to my room / so i can pretend i'm not a passive aggressive bitch

hello

this has been one of those inexplicable days where i've been reached out to by so many people i hadn't heard from in some time with warm words and good news that it feels like we all must be connected somehow

riptide

that vance joy song makes me nostalgic for all those years in portland and austin that i never actually lived

This does suck

I am sitting in the dark in a parking lot in Davenport waiting for triple A because I locked my keys in my trunk retrieving the work boots I accidentally left at the gym last week. I also had to sign up for this AAA membership because of this incident, for which they charge you an extra $25 for needing service the same day you sign up for service. What a scam, am I right?

Ways in which my life doesn't suck

There's this guy who works for one of our vendors. When I met him we were trying to give him some work because he waa newly homeless. Now he has a place to live but he walks 3 miles to a bus stop and commutes for 4 hours by public transport to get to and from work. It rained all day today- poured down so hard on the 2-walls-and-a roof sheet metal structure which we've been working in that you couldn't hear your music or the voices of other people or the sounds in your head. I ended up giving this guy a ride downtown because I live there and that's where his first bus takes him. On the way he told me about a bunch of the crazy things that have happened to him, like when a guy tried to kill him in a parking lot and the time he went to jail for a month.

seven years later

It is truly astounding how much Danish I can pull out of the gutters of my mind when I'm attempting to impress a boy.

What light

Felt sad and hid in my bed under all my blankets all night and ate ice cream and drank all the red wine and watched Shakespeare in love

twenty-eight now

woke up the morning after my birthday in bed under my covers with my boots still on and a sandwich in my purse that i don't remember buying

orlando nye

spent new year's eve sitting on a sidewalk with vana in downtown orlando, leaning against a building and talking and not even noticing when the clock struck midnight. no countdown, no kissing couples, perfect. 

Catching up with DC

I had dranks with my friend from grad school in La and got so sad telling him about this year that I got drunk and went home and chugged a lot more wine and now I'm at the airport and I kind of want to throw up