well just call me ol' ice pack knee

fauna moya

swinging mood

that nap just made me really really bad tempered. i feel like i'm going to be angry for no reason for the next two days.

did you know

Kidney failure can increase blood toxins and contribute to a peaceful coma before death.

insomnia

can i hold a mouthful of coffee in my mouth until it turns cold?

fair warning

another gem from careers.usc

runty

i've felt really un-attractive today

from the beyond

for the bulk of this night i have'nt listened to any music and life without a sound-track is a more enjoyable zen. for the past three weeks i thought i'd been fired from my part-time job - which i was, in a sense, in that i've been fired from one position and been put in another. one where no one can see me or my frown. it entails talking on the phone all day, yah-tah-tah yah-tah-tah. my parents have decided that i will be a lawyer, instead of a bank teller, instead of a programmer. i've decided that sometimes i feel desperate and short of breath and can't even climb up a hill without sitting down or down a hill without my foot hurting. this is my junior high PE shirt.

animal inn by virginia vail

my name is val. should i be a doctor for non-human animals. i'm no great shakes at science

new digs

i'm looking to move in september within the east side into some sort of house with my own room and a large window, lively young people, easy parking and existing pets

i just watched the 2003 doc my flesh and blood and it did not make me feel good

sounds

I interrupted you with my silence. A spot of sunlight slid from your skirt onto the sand as you moved slightly away.

What could I say to you? Could I invoke freedom, captivity, say I did not love you enough? No, that was all wrong.

An instant passed. During that instant, much happened in the world: somewhere a giant steamship went to the bottom, a war was declared, a genius was born. The instant was gone.

nabokov 23

costume jewelry

i must watch marie antoinette

landscape blanket

i give this a hearty YES

http://vikprjonsdottir.com/product/the_landscape_blanket_landslagsteppi

also,

cammy cam

"learning" about cameras by taking lots of shitty photos.

squayel

i found a man-squayel on the sidewalk this afternoon.

he died of something that makes one red in the mouth. when i came by again he was gone. and then i refound him.

someone dragged him by the tail with napkins.

heartless

my favorite thing right now:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FA03weV4hd8&feature=youtu.be

though it seems silly for a tv show to pretend to coach someone who's been singing professionally for years

spaghetti night

i took a very distant field trip last night to upland to have spaghetti, amazing cheese rolls, and a pitcher of amber bock with rhi. she's just come back from study abroad in berlin and told me about her german host mama, who didn't speak any english. she would come into rhi's room with her laptop and sit down on the bed and they would use google translate to talk and talk and talk.

11:11 '11 jobby job

Aleksandr:

11.11 man

we are two interesting people

stuck in shitty jobs

sorry to be so blunt

skunking

did you know it's skunk season? i saw two skunks last night in hollywood, which will be the second and third wild skunks i have ever seen in my life. the first i saw last december in silver lake. they're very small animals, like squirrels rustling in the bushes, with huuuge pipe cleaner tails.

yoga bathroom solace

yoga was so intense tonight that in down dog the sweat drops were rolling towards my eyes and flecking off my body. yoga made me so nauseous that i had to leave and hide in the bathroom, where i stood with my heartpounding feet on the chill floor in the candle darkness. there was a pleasant smell of damp wood coming from somewhere in the darkness, and the hand soap smelled like tender tropical flowers and i smelled here and there like such and drank out of the tap in handfuls, dousing the inner fire that makes for a good yogi.

not my phrasebook

i will probably never say these things - wink wink -

wednesday's child

between a rock and a few other hard places. i want to fold into the smallest of yoga poses and stay there for hours and hours. instead i sleep for hours and hours because nobody cares that i came to look at their books and my feet are hot and my handshake is hot because i walked here from afar and then i dream of finding a speaker blasting avril lavigne into my room.

busting out all over

geoff in la

coming to a library near you

catalogue of do-nothing

i feel shitty because i feel like i have no place in the world. here is today's catalogue of do-nothing.

• read white tiger (not done; very good)
• gave a man a cigarette (because he asked)
• applied for a job i am not qualified for
• listened to blue by leeann rimes on repeat with the windows open
• sat in the sun for almost 2 hours
• read fondue recipes
• found my camera (under the bed; 1 week missing)
• found this picture on the internet
• bought mouthwash and 2 cans of clam chowder
• looked at a german shepherd
• watched real housewives of orange county
• cried twice
• watched marwencol
• texted my brother
• listened to opera
• sang in uncharted territories of my upper register
• tilapia and cookies
• played through the 1858 game of paul morphy vs. the consultants
• was mean to a friend
• two big glasses of red wine and a small half a sandwich

chiffon slit skirt

other people have had worse weeks, and i have had worse weeks, but, regardless, i am still moving to marwencol, belgium

nessun dorma

there are 88 million more views of paul potts singing nessun dorma than there are of pavarotti singing nessun dorma.