catalogue of do-nothing

i feel shitty because i feel like i have no place in the world. here is today's catalogue of do-nothing.

• read white tiger (not done; very good)
• gave a man a cigarette (because he asked)
• applied for a job i am not qualified for
• listened to blue by leeann rimes on repeat with the windows open
• sat in the sun for almost 2 hours
• read fondue recipes
• found my camera (under the bed; 1 week missing)
• found this picture on the internet
• bought mouthwash and 2 cans of clam chowder
• looked at a german shepherd
• watched real housewives of orange county
• cried twice
• watched marwencol
• texted my brother
• listened to opera
• sang in uncharted territories of my upper register
• tilapia and cookies
• played through the 1858 game of paul morphy vs. the consultants
• was mean to a friend
• two big glasses of red wine and a small half a sandwich