from the beyond

for the bulk of this night i have'nt listened to any music and life without a sound-track is a more enjoyable zen. for the past three weeks i thought i'd been fired from my part-time job - which i was, in a sense, in that i've been fired from one position and been put in another. one where no one can see me or my frown. it entails talking on the phone all day, yah-tah-tah yah-tah-tah. my parents have decided that i will be a lawyer, instead of a bank teller, instead of a programmer. i've decided that sometimes i feel desperate and short of breath and can't even climb up a hill without sitting down or down a hill without my foot hurting. this is my junior high PE shirt.